true story... wednesday?

I wouldn't be surprised the people at the sub shop down the street think I'm pregnant. My order i as follows: Turkey sub on white, Swiss cheese, "lots of dijon horseradish mustard," and "lots & lots of pickles!" Yep. Sounds like food a preggers orders! But nope, not preggo. Just weird.

True story.

BF & I are going to Portland, Maine for a mini-vacay in a couple of months. So if anyone out there knows of the good places to see/things to eat, please let me know!

{picture of the inn by the sea, where we're staying}

True story.

The last time we went on a mini-vacay together was last May. But this is the first time we will be flying some place together!

True story.

I am also nervous now that I'm planning a mini-vacation. There just seems to be a lot to put together sometimes for everything to "go right." It's a lot of pressure.

True story.

I have pretty much eaten nothing but lean pockets for the last week. Most lame food ever. Also though? Only food in my freezer & my freezer needs more space. Me = eating lean pockets until the freezer is empty.

True story.

I didn't have enough time in between sleeping the day away yesterday to write this post, so y'all are just going to have to deal with a True Story Wednesday instead of Tuesday this week! :)

True story.

{monday mantra :: march 8th)

This week I'm hoping for zero stress and beautiful weather!

I believe in the power of laughter!

I'm addicted to shopping online and am so tempted to buy a few high-priced item from foodzie.com.

I wish for BF to move up here soon! I miss him so!

I'm jealous of people who are able to work out with no restrictions from their doctors.

Soundtrack/Mantra for the week: "Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure." -Oprah {still the same. i love it oh so much!}

it's what i didn't do that matters.

What I did this wekeend:

- Packed
- Drank wine
- Went to see Valentine's Day with a friend
- Did some serious shopping/talking with Em at the outlet mall
- Bought a new purse
- Ate an amazing meal at Bangkok
- Had a couple glasses of wine
- Did lots of laundry
- Caught up on trashy TV
- Took a lovely Lush bath
- Spent lots of quality time with Oscar puppy at the park

What I didn't do this weekend:

- Get everything packed up

That's really it. And that's a real problem, unfortunately. We are t-minus 5 days until the move to my new apartment, and I have some things in boxes, but not enough.

That being said, who wants to come over and pack my stuff up while i go to sleep help me pack?!

{ why I'm this way }

I'm not gonna lie. I have been majorly down lately.

I've noticed. BF's noticed. You've noticed.

So first and foremost I want to thank you all for being so supportive of me lately. It has not gone unnoticed.

I also wanted to fill you all in on what has been raining on my parade.

First, I was sick pretty much the entire month of January. Then I took a pretty nasty fall in the parking lot & work in February and tore my knee up. I've been doing physical therapy 3 times a week, seeing another doctor once a week, and my knee has gotten worse.

On top of that, my knee injury is causing some serious sleep deprivation. The aches & pains are keeping me awake pretty much all night long. Take note that Rachel on 1-2 hours of sleep = crying, crabby, angry, hot mess.

& this workout-a-holic has not been able to hit the gym at all. The injury + sleep deprivation = no workouts for me = no endorphins released = UGH.

Plus BF & I haven't seen each other in 3 weeks. That's the longest we've gone without a visit, but we won't be seeing each other until next weekend = 4 weeks = Double UGH.

It's really not like me at all to be so, well, depressed. I'm generally a very happy-go-lucky person. I know it's temporary, but it's definitely been a difficult road for me lately. Not asking for your pity, just saying thanks for being there for me y'all!! So thank you for putting up with my crabbiness and my emotional-mess-ness. I appreciate YOU! :)

{writer's workshop - a difficult conversation}

This isn't easy to say. You know, sometimes I think you're too hard on yourself.

Truthfully, I think almost all of the time most of the time you are too hard on yourself. It's not easy for me to tell you this, but you've really got to just let some things go and let them happen. As badly as you'd like to, you cannot control everything.

And you know you are a control freak.

I know you've been struggling lately with the whole not being able to work out thing. You seem to be really down, but don't be! This isn't the end of the world. You should know that. It's simply a temporary roadblock. And your safety and health should be most important, not your outward appearance.

So just relax.

Don't stress.

Breathe.

Let. It. GO.

Someone needs to tell you this, so it might as well be me. I'll be the bad guy and say the things that no one else wants to say, and the things you refuse to admit.

xoxo,
Yourself

This letter to myself has been inspired by the prompt: A difficult conversation.

{this post has been part of Mama Kat's Writer's Workshop}

true story tuesday.

Have I mentioned I'm addicted to planning and budgeting? So much so that the fact that I can't predict the weather for the weekend of my big move to the new place is freaking me out like craziness.

True story.

I refuse to put a deposit down on a UHaul until I hear the forecast.

True story.

I'm so looking forward to this weekend! Not only am I going to the outlet mall with my heterosexual life partner, Em!

True story.

I really shouldn't be doing anything this weekend cause I must pack and I'm pretty much useless in doing so during the week.

True story.

Angela tweeted about this dress yesterday and now I am in love.

{dress found here}

True story.

{weekend wrap up & mantra - march edition}

Just a quick weekend wrap-up: I did mostly nothing this weekend & it was lovely. I did watch Law Abiding Citizen & Jesus Camp. For the record, Law Abiding Citizen was good, and Jesus Camp was terrifying. Like straight up scared for my life. But more on that later. It's time for this weeks mantra!

This week I will be extremely emotional. I've accepted this. Nothing I can do about it.

I believe in weekends and cupcakes.

I'm addicted to Cherry Diet Dr. Pepper. I'm drinking one with my breakfast right now.

I wish for a few things to happen sooner than they probably will.

I'm jealous of people who are living in the same state as their significant other.

Soundtrack/Mantra for the week: "Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure." -Oprah {keeping it the same as last week}

weekend plans? no plans = perfection

Thank Goodness It's Friday {even though I'm snowed in and BF can't make it up this weekend as planned. not that I'm complaining. Kind of.}

Like every week, this week has had it's challenges. I'm still restricted from the gym, which has been insanely difficult. And last night we got slammed with snow. Like pretty much seven inches by the time I got home from work {and a foot & a half overnight last night}. But that turned out to be the least of my worries because Oscar puppy had an accident in the house {for the record, this is not at all like my little angel, so I fear something may be wrong with him. Fourth time in 6 weeks. I've made an appointment with a vet later today. hope my little man gets better.}.

After I cleaned up the mess, I went downstairs to battle the snow shovel my walkway and driveway. For those who don't live in the arctic that is known as Syracuse places that get tons of snow, you may not be familiar with the kind of snow that is super wet and heavy. This kind of snow? Not my friend. I shoveled the seven to eight inches of snow on my walkway {just to get to my driveway} but I wasn't getting anywhere.

In comes my newest hero... my neighbor, with his snow blower, to save the day. What would have taken me {literally} hours to do, and he just did it in 3 minutes. I'm so grateful to the kindness of people. For real.

Now that I'm sure I'll be mostly snowed in this weekend, I have planned to do much of the following:

Sleep.

Watch movies. {on my to watch list: Law Abiding Citizen & Jesus Camp}

Pack up my belongings into boxes. {I dread this, but it must be done!}

Sleep more. {this is obviously a given}

Take care of Oscar puppy {this includes a lot of playing and snuggling}.

Read both books & blogs.

Bake some treats for my kind neighbor who cleared my driveway.

Talk to BF via Gmail video chat. {next best thing, I suppose}

Take a nice, long, relaxing, Lush Bath Bomb bath. {note: my new place doesn't have a tub! must use these bath bombs quickly!}

So what are your weekend plans, kids?

true story.

I can't wait for the Syracuse Tweetup this Thursday! I always have so much fun with the Syracuse tweeps!

True story.

Syracuse is supposed to get hit with a few large storms this weekend. I'm really not looking forward to it.

True story.

This would normally be BFs weekend to visit, but he has to work in Ohio, so I'm a lot little bummed.

True story.

But this will give me some more time to pack for my move in a few weeks.

True story.

The Bachelor is hilarious. Not in a "I hope they get married & live happily ever after" kinda way, but in a "these stupid, stupid, girls!" kinda way.

True story.

I finished Mad Men Season 1 last weekend and now I understand what all the fuss is about! What an awesome show! I love it and Netflix will be sending me season two shortly.

True story.

Oscar likes to sit/lay/sleep on top of my clothes when I'm packing (see picture) so it should be fun to pack all of my things up for the new place {please note the sarcasm}.

True story.

{weekend wrap up & mantra}

Happy Monday to all (or something like that)! I had a super low-key weekend. Which is always nice. I did manage to take a picture of the new apartment I will be moving into mid-March! So here's your sneak peak:

So yeah, that's not my stuff in it. I was going over to measure the windows. Thank goodness I did because there are SO many! I'm really excited. Can you tell!?

Ok, without further ado, here is this weeks Monday Mantra! Enjoy your week!

This week will test me. I know it.

I believe in the power of thinking positively!

I'm addicted to sleep. I always will be.

I wish for a good, relatively stress-free week!

I'm jealous of people who are not supposed to get hammered with a crapload of snow this week.

Soundtrack/Mantra for the week: "Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure." -Oprah